
It is nearing the end of Junior year, Wesley and I are thick as thieves. He decides from looking at pictures one day he wants to be introduced to my best friend (much to my chagrin) but who was I to say no.
Trying to make a really long story just a little bit shorter, my dream guy is now interested in my best friend and I start dating the epitome of an absolute worthless loser....
Junior Prom is coming and my two best friends are going together and I am going with Loser Boy. Yay me... It was one of the worst nights of my life I was absolutely miserable because I am there with a guy I don't even like, who I'm positive didn't like me, just because dumpy me, didn't think I could do any better. One long, wretched month goes by of me hating myself because I'm with this awful guy, who I don't even want to spend any time or energy on but again, don't think I can do any better so this is where my life must go. All the while spending all my free time with Wesley.
If I hang out w/Loser Boy, I insist Wesley comes with me. This guy treats me horribly and Wes asks me why I stay with him... because I can't do any better I say. Time goes by and every waking moment of free time is spent with Wes. We go to movies, dinners, he comes over to my house... all the while he says he is still interested in my best friend and I'm still dating.... barf.... loser boy.
One reason or another things don't work out between my friends and I get dumped by Loser Boy, YAY! I get dumped... by a worthless idiot, GO ME! I am really feeling like a winner now.
All my time is now spent with Wesley. It's summer time. We spend all night talking on the internet and most of our days running around being teenagers.... I remember the first time we went to El Campisinos he leaned over really close to me that his face was almost touching mine... and I looked up and he looked away. How sweet... I remember the time when we went to Kmart and got a slushie to share and then went over to Quonset Hut. I picked up the slushie and put it to my lips and took a drink of it, I was looking down while I did so to put my car in reverse... and Wes whispered to me that, that was "really sexy". And I looked up and he had a gleam in his eye and he was smiling that big beautiful smile of his... but, neither would admit to the other that we had feelings for one another.
Ha, I don't think I've mentioned to you about Wesley's obsession and one of the biggest reasons I didn't like him when he finally opened his mouth and started talking those first few days of class. I hope he doesn't get mad at me for divulging this, but, what's a good story without some naughty bits, *giggle* Wesley had an obsession. An obsession he wasn't shy in sharing with any and everybody. Wesley was tired of being a virgin and he didn't hold back on letting you know it. He talked about it constantly! It became the root of most our conversations over the internet that summer... and frankly, I was tired of hearing about it.
One night I got bold. I told him to shut up about it and just come over to my house already. He didn't say anything for at least 5 whole minutes. I thought I scared him away and almost started crying, lol, finally he typed back, "are you serious?" I started laughing thinking we were playing a game now and I said, yes, I am serious. Another minute goes by and he says, okay, I'll be there soon. Keep in mind it is 3:00 oclock in the morning, we are both minors and he is going for a jolly run to my house. With the blessing from his younger sister, he runs to my house. I pace my bedroom floor the whole time, leaving my computer im up thinking its only a matter of time before he hops back online and tells me "he was just kidding" About 40 minutes later, there is a knock on my window. On shaking legs I go over and open my window and he crawls through. Panting from running and looking oh so HOT, lol, I offer to get him some juice and he kindly accepts. I am walking to the kitchen shaking my head back and forth muttering, I can't believe this is happening. I take him back the juice and sit down on my couch. He sits down beside me and I turn mtv on. We make meaningless chat for awhile and watch music videos... (yes when there was music videos on mtv) but hes getting fidgety. Thinking he is trying to find an excuse to go back home, realizing he made a huge mistake, I start yawning and telling him how tired I am. He stands up quickly and just stands there. So, I turn the light off and crawl into my bed thinking he will allow himself permission now to head back home, claiming insanity to himself. I stare at the video on tv and wait for him to leave. The video on was: Sour Girl by Stone Temple Pilots and Wesley will be the first one to tell you that, he remembers it to this day and always thinks of me when he hears it. He is still standing there watching the tv so I turn around to look up at him, he looks down at me and kisses me upside down. (He still claims spiderman and mary jane stole the kiss from him, hehe) and you only get the rest of the story if you are a close personal friend and have heard all the juicy details already.... lol... sorry.
That's my story of how Wes and I met, became friends, and life mates.... That ends this chapter of the story. I will continue on *more than likely skipping our whole senior year because frankly it's too painful to write down*

This song always makes me think of that time in my life when I was dating loser boy, when I had the man of my dreams right there....
ReplyDeleteAccording to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.
According to you
I'm difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I'm a mess in a dress,
can't show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.
But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.
According to you
I'm boring,
I'm moody,
you can't take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span;
you're the boy who puts up with that.
According to you. According to you.
But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you.
I need to feel appreciated,
like I'm not hated. oh-- no--.
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me decide.
According to me
you're stupid,
you're useless,
you can't do anything right.
But according to him
I'm beautiful,
incredible,
he can't get me out of his head.
According to him
I'm funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don't feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He's into me for everything I'm not,
according to you. [you, you]
According to you. [you, you]
According to you
I'm stupid,
I'm useless,
I can't do anything right.